I’ve been deep, down, dirty and dark
Grim as the reaper that came for a stark
Lost in all this haze, god give me a spark
It’s like the demons caught up to me, rip me apart
Drugs and alcohol, fueling my rage
Picking up the family heirloom, engaged
Running through my blood, help me feel this pain
The sickest disease to ever hit me, I’m strained.
Bloodshot bleary and lost behind brown
Twitching, looking around, like whats that sound?
Trust is all gone, don’t take that round
Cuz he’ll turn it back on you and reveal that shroud
The devil’s all around me, it’s hard to ignore
Fixing to stick me and seep through my pores
The smell is coming off of me, death is close
Been treading lightly but I took that dose
Runnin’ through my head, tryin’ to get out quick
The treadmill keeps spinnin’, it’s a helluva trick
Master of myself but its all just fake
Mind games control me, keep me awake
Just another one to settle my nerves down
Creepin’ through my system as my arm bleeds out
Pop another pill to calm that shit down
Try not to look sad forever I frown
Just pass me the bottle, let me tip that back
I can take more than you, thats a simple fact
Muscle memory, keep sipping and pouring
But in my mind I’m racing, tears are pouring
The pain deep inside, I’m forever ignoring
There’s nothing wrong with me, I’m fine on this flooring
Let me pass out, I’ll be cool in the morning
I’ll be cool in the morning…